life is good :)

yesterday was pretty much bomb :) kicked ass in the truck pulls so did dad :) I may have been the only person in my class but I got first ;) there were about 5 total girls that pulled so I felt special and most of us pulled better than the boys lol. I was the first diesel puller and set a high standard for the others, I pulled 202.73 out of 300 feet :) it was so cool... the rest of the day was spent with jess, Shawn, Christina (if I remember right), and alex it was fun :) elephant ears, drives into town jokes like crazy and my favorite part, hand holding :) I forgot what it felt like to hold his hand :) so much comfort I feel safe and I also feel special cuz I've got that one someone standing next to me :) take my hand and show me off to the world :) hold me in your arms and keep me safe, show me your love and I'll be yours forever :) *happy sigh* it was a wonderful day and I loved spending it with jess :)

almost perfect evening

tonight is only missing thing... you :) seriousally I don't think I have wanted to be by your side this much in a long time, just having fun in the kitchen cooking and curling up on the couch under a blanket, I'm just in the mood to want to be with the one I love... be with you. I guess it's a mood thing but I feel like sitting and just being near you... it feels like you are missing here with my family... I can't describe the way I feel inside because its just a you gotta be there moment... all I know is I can't wait for the future... hmmmm

sneaky

it's so fun being sneaky and right now I would love to sneak out after my shower and go over to your house and sneak in and cuddle with you till I had to go back to work... that would seriousally be amazing... but it won't happen, considering the current situation we want my parents to trust us enough as adults so we can go on the weekend trip... anyway thought I just stop in and say hi.. :) tonight was ok, I'm glad I got to see you before I had to be abandoned all night lol... miss you, see you later today :) for now I suppose my bed will do :P 'night'

wishin

I keep wishing I could just stop the clock for a day, just put it on pause, not worry about work or chores or other things that need to get done, I just want to curl up on the couch with you and let the world fade away, just sit and watch a movie or something, just do nothing. relax and cuddle in your safe loving arms, talk about nothing and just enjoy the moment without anything else to worry about. I wish there could be a day to to that, it sounds so wonderful, but how in our busy schedules would that ever happen... life, it's flying by and I wanna pause it for a day...

insanity

you are driving me insane, not a bad insane, just a craving insane, you are sitting in your truck working on it, and I so badly want to wrap my arms around you and sit there with you, next to you, touching you... you know I've missed you, and I swear I can't get enough of you. when you hurt yourself, I wanna kiss it better, I never want to leave your side, and when you get frustrated as a part I wanna hug you and tell you to breath. I want to fix your back that you said you messed up, I want to hold your hand, I want to kiss you, I never want to leave. you torture me, you kiss me then go back to what you were doing and I want one more, I just want to hold you all night long and wake up in your arms, I miss you the second you leave my side, please tell me if I'm being clingy, I'll back off, I tried so hard today to let you have your space and not crowd you, but I longed to just touch you just to kiss you just to speak to you, you have no idea how much I've missed you or how much I love you, you are amazing :)