missing you

walking along the beach this morning just made me think of you, how much I am missing you already this weekend, it's really fun getting to know some of the older girls that are here, cconsidering I am the youngest by 5 years. I love the atmosphere here at the beach, it's just odd tryin to keep with everyone here 20-70 yrs old... I wish you could be here in my arms, I miss you. lots! I wanna hold your hand and walk along the beach with you enjoying Gods creation. I remember very clearly the last time we were at the beach <3 memories in my mind that I love are surrounding that day. I miss you so much love and hope you are having a good dy at work!! I love you <3

kicked around like a puppy

wow lately all it's been is Nicki do this nicki do that... it frisking pisses me
off... she always has to have the upper hand like she knows better in everything in life because 'she's been through lots' I don't give a shit... you aren't living my life and I don't care what you say... I'm sick of where I'm at... I want a better job, and I wish I could speed up life into the future a little bit to see what other jobs come in the future... seltzer could get here soon that'd be nice... fir now I have to stick it out and deal with this crap I keep being handed... I don't like this whole being bossed around by her and everyone... I'm an adult and I can make my own decisions...

heartaches

I never imagined it being this hard, really in 09 we did 3 weeks... why is it so much harder for 6 days? my heart hurts, and every now an then I gotta hold bak the tears. I know I'll be back in your arms soon, but you seem so far away, I feel like a magnet that's been broke in half and tossed into another state.... I just want to be back in you arms where I know I'm safe. I miss you so much Jess, I need you here. Florida is gonna be really hard too... :/
I should stop writing before I get myself in trouble... I love you and miss you Jess <3

road trippin it

ok first off Gods creation is AMAZING!! it's so pretty out on the road and that's why I love it!! looking out over all these huge ranches really makes my inner cowgirl jealous, I would love to look out my back window and see fields of paints, Arabs, and draft horses :) the wild life out here is amazing too, beautiful mockingbirds and little bunnies! the only thing I want right now is to be sitting here with your hand in mine as we fly down the road through these hills!! I was gonna try not to miss you until a few days passed but i didn't even last a day :/ it's amazing to me how one can have feelings in their heart, shut them out, let them back in and they are stronger than before... you have no idea how badly I miss you right now, although I know you probably miss me just and much lol

we are rollin down the road headed out of Utah and into Wyoming (400 and some odd miles to Chyenne) I've got so many country songs in my head I just about can't listen to my iPod, my brain is on shuffle lol. hmm I'm out of words right now but I'm sure I will have more later!!! I miss you tons!! <3 laters love :) ..... (and you too Ariel ;)