screwing around again

haha yeah not screwing around just screwing thing up as usual... so far tho the people moved in an all is mostly well, I gotta start puttin some better rules down cuz the place looks like a pigsty

anyway I just keep thinkin back to all I've done in the past, three years ago on march 11 I thought I'd found that one guy for me, an now this year march 11 I'd screwed up somethin that I had wished would last, it just amazes me how much can change with just a few little words or a few little actions that determine the rest of your life, my biggest thing right now is any guy I talk to knows at least 1 or 2 of the other guys I've dated or hang out with and it's a big messy circle of everything going on and I just want to get out, 6 more weeks an I leave for Texas, sadly only for a few days but it will help, I just don't know what to do with myself anymore, I have so much going on and nothing to do all at the same time, I just want to figure out where I'm supposed to be headed. I wanna find that one someone and settle down as start my life already, I want to find a job in all this crazy I just want to do what I want!! the sunshine outside is torturing me, it would be a perfect day for boarding but bens gotta work, an I do to, anyway thats all I'm rambling on for today... I just wanna get out and do something...