headaches n heart attacks!

my mind has been racing so much lately about everything going on, an I'm texting like 5 people at once and trying to keep with with all these guys messing with my head! I just dont know what to do right now!! I was sitting here running parts and pondering all these guys ... and I'm trying to figure out what I'm supposed to do and where I'm suppose to go with all this... an as I'm sittin here thinkin about texting Ben later, he all the sudden just shows up in the shop... I really hope he can't tell that my cheeks flush bright red an my body goes into 200 degree temperature inside and my heart starts racing... it's so insane what happens when he walks into the room... I've got to talk to him, but there's no time before we leave, so I suppose on one of our snowboard trips I'll have to say something... there's just something about him that gets to me and I can't get enough of it, I feel torn when he leaves. and I know hes headed to the beach... it takes me so much restraint to not hop in my truck an meet him down there... I just want to hug him and tell him how he makes me feel without ruining anything we already have... back to work ... mind circling and heart still racing...