What to do...

I feel so stuck without being able to know which direction is the best to take right now. I know what's right an wrong, but at the same time I have this craving that I can't stop... All my bad habits, chewing, smoking, drinking, sleeping around. I really need to cut the bad out of my life but I don't know where to start or how to quit. I know what I want I just don't know how to get there from here. I just want someone who cares about me and wants to be my encouragement in my life. Be there for me in the thick an thin and love me for me. I feel so depressed and wanting to cry all the time is ridiculous. I don't know how I've become that person we all shied away from and said we would never be. I want to be better but I don't know how. I know I can't rely on anyone to make me a better person because as soon as they leave I'll fall right back into the pattern I was in. I feel like I've fallen so far from where I started, I feel like I've fallen past that deep hole I was in 6 years ago. I'm in a slump and just want to bury myself in a corner an cry and shut out the world. I don't know what I can do anymore I'm so sick of the hurt and pain. I don't want to go back to cuttin but it's what let's the pain out. It gives me a release but only for a minute. Then I'm right back where I was... Right back to the bottom of that black hole... I feel a lot like eyore. No one cares if I've fallen. No one wants to help me back up I'm just stuck in this shit world by myself to try an figure it all out on my own... Well here's to me failures an all....