Hours at the bar

It has been crazy today, being down at the bar. I wasn't sure if I was gonna even come down but since Ryan invited me last night I figured I would stop in and at least have a drink and say hi. So much fun has happened!! I flipped him off and he looks at me smiles an says you would.... *face bright red* instantly..... we sat an laughed about it an when I mean sat I'm on a stool an there's one like 4 inches from mine so he was leaning on me in like 5 places.... I went from comfortable to sweat soaked in about 2 seconds flat..... Haha then we joked about why I had the spins last night, Hes all, its not my fault, an I looked at him an he's like ok maybe a little an winked I said the frickin drinks are about clear... Hes all eh it's weak coke. We just keep playing back and forth it feels so good to be back where we were before this whole thing blew up in our faces a month back. He gave me a 5 to go play some music on the jukebox, so I played chicken fried and he just starts belting it out, I didn't realize how good of a singer he is! my insides melted so much... Just being able to joke and laugh with him again makes my day better, makes my week better!!! And I'm always up for a good laugh :) I can't believe I spent 7 hours down at the bar with one of my best friends being able to laugh and joke and talk and catch up on everything lately!! I'm glad to have my friend back and I can't wait for these next few weeks, they should be good ones!!. We also are sharing a keno ticket, 4 of his numbers and 4 of mine, we are going to play it every Sunday night and see if we get the 8 spot win, if so we split it 50/50 such is about 8 grand each. Sounds like a great deal!! Well I'm gonna take all the perfect memories of tonight and go to bed with them. So glad I chose to go down to the bar for a 'few ' :)

Another night

Just another night out at the bar... Been an interesting one... At least things between Ryan an myself are better a little... Been a little crazy too... Since I started smoking again after a bad night I had a month ago I had a cigarette behind my ear and Ryan came over and told me I don't want it an I did... He took it away and tossed it... Then I told him why I had started again and he gave me one of his and we went out an smoked an talked trucks some... We just might get past all this shit that's been happening between us lately... I just miss having my friend and being able to talk to him. I'm waiting for spring and summer to hopefully have my boat going so we can spend some time out on the water with him. I hate not knowing how long we really have left. Before he's gone and I become a complete disaster. I already miss him knowing what is to come. I hate worrying about him but I can't do anything about it. I just wish things would start looking up for me again. I'm tired of all this negativity and shit that's happening to me all the time. When does it get better??