Well it's been 4 years, i doubt anyone will read this, but here I am again, same boat same thing and just more time passing. I get so bummed out by this cycle, find someone who is decent and a good person and could really fit into the life i have envisioned for myself, and again they don't want anything to do with me. will I always be single? Will I never have kids? Will I be lonely for life? I am so depressed over this. I just want someone to hold at night and give my love to. I want to build a family and raise good kids and pass along my knowledge. I don't want my family line to end with me. I want to give my parents the chance to be grandparents. I want so many things but I have no way to do that.
Im struggling with being able to cope with this part of life. I just want so many things, but none are in my control and none of them have anyway of appearing to me anytime soon. I want someone to travel with and go hiking and camping with. I want someone to share memories with and to dance with. I want to be able to experience life with someone.
The only thing that is going my way so far is the probability of a new job at the fire station. working full time and being able to move out from my parents. I;m just ready to move on with this part of life.
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