that little hole

yep I've sunk back down into it an I don't know what to do... all this pain an stress is making me crazy... is it so hard to ask for someone decedent in my life?? why must all guys be complete asses? the act like this one day and treat you totally different the next... I'm sick of all this playing games shit... I just want to be happy, I just want to be with that special someone who is just right for me... why is it the one guy that I totally want is so nice to me, an now is completely ignoring me, it's like I don't exsist... I feel like shit an I just want someone to hang with... no one cares.. I'm just the weird girl who doesn't have a place... I am so sick of being ignored like this all the time... it hurts and I can't stand it... I guess it's another quiet night in my apt alone with popcorn an a sad movie to cry myself to sleep to again... :/ I just hurt so bad inside