2012

well it's a brand new year and nothing is really different. I'm always stuck in the same place, and now it's worse at home because I have no Internet to occupy myself I am so bored all the time. whatever tho that doesn't matter... there is so much going on yet nothing all at the same time. I haven't spoken to or even hardly seen Melinda in at least 2 weeks.

my mind has been going insane with the typical subject... boys... it ways seems as soon as something is promising, or I look into something a little too much, I'm always wrong and get get hurt and ignored, I really wish people would talk to me. this one guy is such a gentleman! hardly a text shorter than 5 words no matter what. his family is pretty cool and he's a really caring guy... beside the fact that he likes to drink a bit more than the average person... but oh we'll... I just wish I would be noticed by him and not ignored do much...
then there's this other guy that I've talked to quite a bit but he keeps saying it won't ever go anywhere so I've pretty much given up on that one
there's also the guy from Washington who was a complete ass to me after telling me that he would put out all the effort he could, I haven't texted him in a week and he hasn't either... so Im just gonna keep ignoring his dumb ass... I just want a country boy that loves the woods and God, I'm thinkin id be better off in another state where the real hillbillies reside haha... I just want to be happy in life. I want to find someone who truly loves me and wants to be by my side for the rest of my life without having to lie to me or be an ass. I just want to be happy. for now I guess I will settle with still being in my apt.