Another piece shattered

Well yet again I'm crushed an broken inside... The season is winding down and I've found out that Daniel does have a girlfriend that he's brought along on a couple runs. Kinda kills me inside after he's seemingly flirted with me. This am he came in early to go stack (so he's driving tractor and I don't get to see him) anyway, he talked for a min or two. He chuckled about thinking about putting some bales in front of my truck to keep me from getting out of my parking spot, but decided he better not if I got stuck. Then wished me a good day. It just kills me inside I can't be better friends with him. I get so jealous thinking about him having a girlfriend but I know it's not right. Ill just be sitting with my country music on being bummed out today. It's just been so frustrating lately not going where I want to. An why are all these things that are so wonderful laid out in front of me yet I can't have any of them?

I want to stop hurting inside... </3 I will for sure kiss this job and my coworkers and friends that I've made...