Cuts like a knife

I don't know what have been going on lately, everything seems all messed up, no one wants to talk to me, no one wants to hang out. I just don't understand, do I smell? An I too fat? Am I too loud? What is wrong with me? Why does no one want to be around me? In so lost and hurt and confused,  I just want to talk to people and have a good time!! I'm falling back Into that little black hole, I'm back to wanting to cut and just hide out and not do anything, no job no real friends no one to keep me up on level ground before I fall further down in the pit... I want to just cry and do nothing... Well back to just more nothing... :/