Homewrecker

I just don't see how I keep becoming a problem for any of my friends. It seems anytime I try and be a good friend to guys their significant others completely flip out and think that they are cheating with me and then I can't be their friend anymore. I just don't see why. It's so difficult when you lose one of your best friends to this, I'm scared to even go down to the bar for fear that she's there watching his every move. I thought I would have around 4 years to be his friend, now I don't know if I'll ever see him again or even be able to talk to him... It's so hard in life when things get so complicated and relationships and friendships are torn apart in minutes. I don't even know what to do anymore. I don't know where to go or what to say. I really just want to run and hide and dissapear and not be anyone's problem anymore. I'm such a burden on so many people I just want to leave and never come back or be anyone's problem. No one would notice anyway.