crappy feelings again

an once again I'm here feelin like shit... I just can't get past Kalab, he's always on my mind. I just can't function like a normal person anymore... I just want to talk to him all the time an cant because he's either sleeping or not texting back and I cant always text him because that's annoying an he will ignore me more and I just feel so stuck all the time... I got all these songs that run around in my head that remind me of him. any time I hear a song it usually reminds me of him in some way an this provoking his always being on my mind. I just wish I could sit down an tell him how I feel and be able to work it all out without any problems but with my shitty luck he will back pedal on me an never talk to me again. so I'll just keep sittin here wishin he would text me an being a loner... I feel like I aint got any friends that really care how I feel. only one more week until my roommates are gone. that will be a good day. I'm so sick of them an them being around all the time doesn't help me at all. anyway enough ranting for today.. :/...