nobody gives a shit...

ever feel like no one around you gives a shit about you? that's how I'm feeling today... no one cares, my Frieda wont answer their phones and people keep deleting my comments off their statuses... it's really depressing especially after my first day at work that there's no one to tell about my day to... I just want to curl up and cry... the person I want to tell lots of things to doesnt want me to exsist but he's playin nice cuz he's not a complete asshole, just mostly one... I just dont know what to feel or what to even do anymore... I want to leave this shithole and start over... but there's no way I can... I'm so bummed out I'm barely doing anything anymore... softball church league which just started... derby is goin down the drain... I just don't have time or any motivation to want to do any of that... I just hurt so bad inside nothing sounds like fun anymore... I just want to disappear....I dont want to hurt like this anymore... I need someone to pick me up and dust off my shoulders from being walked on. I need someone to love me