congloberation of mixed feelings :/

I don't know what to do, I want one thing then the next moment I want something else... there are so many pros and cons to decisions... and right now I'm weighing both.. I don't know what's happening... I can't sort out my feelings an have no idea which side is up in my emotions right now... I want one thing, but I want that too... I want to quit hurting people, I want this to be right I want to make the right choice... i just don't know.... ugh... :( I hurt still ... i just wish.... erg... :/ it's my choice and my future life... what do I really want? why am I supposed to do... I want to be happy and not confused... I want to be free and not weighed down by a wrong decision... *sigh* I hate being stuck...