so much...

there is so much going on right now , new friends, old friends, back stabbers, liars, people who say one thing then turn and do another... I don't know where I am or what I'm doing anymore... I know what I'm currently enjoying in life, but don't know what direction I'm supposed to go. there is still that crazy feeling in my gut when a specific person does a specific thing and it drives my mind and heart insane, it makes me want it all the more... I don't know what to do who to say what to think anymore... it's crazy but I know who I'm happy with... ugh so many thoughts...