depressed again?

Kinda feelin that way again... it's really sucky I can't ever get what I want... I just want someone to hold me and whisper in my ear. I want someone I can be with someone I can show off to the world... why is there no one out there for me?? I'm so stuck and hurting right now, I really need a pick-me-up I just don't know what to do... I don't know who to look to anymore. I know I'm supposed to just live for God and he will provide, well I don't know where I supposed to be and this rut is not any fun anymore.. I just want to be happy again. I want to live again, I feel so dead these days, even after a really fun weekend. I just feel like crying... I hate being depressed but that's where I am... just about feeling the need to hide the sharp stuff...