yep did it again...

I always seem to fuck it all up... no matter what I do I'm never good enough.... and just as always... I try to do something and just make it worse... why do I bother ... I'm always getting my hopes up and then just being crushed over and over again... it really hurts when he bails on me 20 min before we are supposed to meet... I feel like I'm annoying him... why is he being such an ass to me?! do I always find the ass holes?? I just can't do anything right... I'm gonna fuckin die and old maid never settle down or have kids or the life I want... what's the point anymore where's the fun and reason in life?? I ain't found it I guess... whatever fuck this... a walk in the rain sounds good tonight after a few drinks... y'all know where to find me... night.....