running over

my thughts are just running over, I can't focus on anything anymore, I can't help but think of him all the time, I can't help but want to hold him again, every song on my playlist reminds me in some way of him. it's hurts so bad, my tears run over. hiding them from every one around me. I so badly want to go find him and just say exactly what I'm feeling inside right this minute. but that would be the last time I ever see him. he would never talk to me again for fear of leading me on... he would try to dissapear from my lve completely when all I want is for him to cone back into my life. I only want a second chance! although I have asked him for a secon chance and he gave it to me, and I know I'm not worthy for another. but I just want one more chance, one more day, one more time to be able to say, I love you and I'm always here...