more tears

.. wow reading his an my old convos wow... gosh i miss him so much.. here is a blip of what i miss..

:tniigcgkeir (6/18/2009 10:49:33 PM): do you think it strange that we are planning all this stuff and we havent even been together for 1/4 of a year yet.. that we havent even gone out for more then 3 months.. and that we are like planning after marriage stuff...??

dallasfirefighter911 (6/18/2009 10:52:23 PM): as long as we are both comfortable with it i don't see y not. Babe i have every intention of marring you, and this stuff is just details of life. i dont think its strange to be talking about the future we plan on spending together

tniigcgkeir (6/18/2009 10:54:56 PM): ok... then second part of question.. have you ever second guessed our relationship?? not saying that we dont belong together.. or anything.. jsut that it has come to me.. like we are really young still and stuff.. btu then i think.. sam and landon.. and callie and brennan.. so yeah.. i dunno... it jsut seems so soon to be planning and stuff.. but it doesnt bother me.. wow that made a whole lot more sense in my head....

tniigcgkeir (6/18/2009 10:56:12 PM): and i know you have every intent of marrying me. and i marrying you.. but like what if it doesnt work out.. and all.. i dunno.. just sayin

tniigcgkeir (6/18/2009 10:56:46 PM): then agin we could play the what if game all day..lol.. what if my truck rolled.. what if.... i know ... just take it one day at a time

tniigcgkeir (6/18/2009 10:58:00 PM): then this other thought comes to mind... what about the end times.. when the rapture comes. it could be any day and i want to live.. i want to have kids and marry.. i dont want to run out of time. but the signs of the world are here.. that i why i hate watching the news... it freaks me out.. i jsut want to be with you forever.. and not worry about running out of time.. btu not rushing anythign either...

dallasfirefighter911 (6/18/2009 11:03:26 PM): yes babe one day at a time... honestly, what we have together is hard to find these days, and i want the most out of my life and i want it to be happy, and i find that being with you makes me tha happiest.. and making the most out of life would be even better with you. these feelings i have never felt before ever, i believe this is my sign from god(you). Nicole, i want to marry you, i dont like the wat if games because it scares me sometimes, and i don't want that. ya it may be strange, but we are both talking about it.. if we werent ment for each other we would have know by now.. i love you and i always will, ya we maybe young, but sometimes life has different paths and ours seams to be the best one to take, even if it means early marriage, lots of ppl get married young, and it works for

dallasfirefighter911 (6/18/2009 11:03:41 PM): them, so why second guess the best thing in life

yeah i miss that so much.. and this is why i want him back... i shouldnt keep reading all these old convos, im a mess right now.. *tears* ugh.. i jsut want him back...