what to do....

ok so i was talking with minnie a bit and she suggested that i jsut talk to him... cuz what is the worst thing that its gonna do? make our already awkward friendship more awkward? so yeah.. i so wish i woulda texted him last night.. cuz he was craving taco bell and i wanted to go but didnt have to guts to text him and ask.. but now i know he woulda.. then i woulda driven and he woulda been under my time schedule..lol.. im just gonna have to find the guts and time to say, hey can we chill sometime i wanna talk.... so yeah this is about what i wanna say... Jess i wanted to tell you how much i miss you and how much i still love you and how much i think about you everyday.. i am willing to put in 110% for a relationship again, i am willing to try so hard to be open and communicate and be better than i was in the past, if you are willing to give me a second chance.. i know there was a lot of things in the past that split us up, but you know i have changed, and i am willing to do anything to make us work again, Jess, would you be willing to try to make you and me work again? i cant stand to live without you in my life.... i will let you go hang out with just the boys, and let you have space when you want it and let you do what you want, i wont take over, i know what i did in the past and i wanna try again, what we had was amazing, and i want us to be able to be better than amazing....

yeah.. i dunno..... but i miss him so much... and i cant stand seeing him like 4 times without holding him in my arms and hugging him .. and kissing him... i so badly want him back....