I'm Being Stupid Again

Sitting out in the freezing cold... listening to old love songs.. I miss you so much and it feels like if I can just do somethin that reminds me of you I can go on I can continue this painful journey without you. I want to feel your lips against mine again I want to be back in your arms.. not for a little hug I want you to hold me in your arms.. I want to sleep by your side. I want you back in my life again... you took so much away from me when you left me. I love you so much and I want you to love me again I want to go back to what we had in the beginning it was so amazing, but now I feel like I have been shoved out of everything I used to do. I can't function. I just want to sit and cry all the time and think back to all the memories we made together, there is so much missing in my life without you here. Jess I need you back. I need you to love me. I need you to kiss me. I need you to hold me and tell me you never want to lose me again. you say you
don't want to hurt me again, well then take me back and never leave me again. stay with me forever I want you forever. I miss you so much. everything reminds me of you. I can't go a day without saying your name. I can't go a night without dreaming of you. I can't go a second without thinking about you. I can just cry sitting here thinking about everything we used to be. all our memories bring back tears or a smile and I just want to keep making memories with you , but it seems you have given up, like you don't want anything to do with me at all. it feels like you don't trust me enough to tell me anything anymore. I want to know everything about you. I want to be your life, like you were mine. I love you so much and I miss you like crazy.

Dec 24th 2009