Incapable

I feel so retarded, i cant even get my truck going, i mean i finally did, but after having Jess jump it then running to town and having both dad and him come jump it again, i feel like a total idiot, and if it wouldnt have lost the alternator belt i coulda spent more time with Jess, oh well i guess its prolly better that i dont spend time with him, i just wish we could talk and be normal not so awkward friends again... i miss him so much, even tho i talk to him and text him, i feel so lost, i just wanna hold him in my arms and sleep through the night with him by my side, and wake up in forever with him,....